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October 21 disappionted I don't know exactly what I am doing.Even though I know it is not his fault.I can't help shouting at him ,and next ,is silence.There will not be any quarrel between us for ever.He keeps silente to anything,especially my shout. A lot of things have changed as time passed,including our love.And I even doubt if love has existed.I believe I used to be his only,but now he seldom makes an appiontment with me.A computer and some computer games is enough for him.He never looks into my eyes ,while I always look at him ,expecting he can do the same as me and comprehend something ,but at the end except disappiontment I have nothing.He never knows a lot of things can be sovled by a hug,he never knows I miss our past so much.He complains to me about I care too much about the details,he says I am a irascible girl and always being angry with all the things.I never know he considers me as such kind of girl.I used to believe two people will be warmer than a single one.Autumn is coming ,it is a bit of cold outside ,but when we walk along the road hand in hand I feel so chilly,it seems I am arouded by ice.He can't warm me,I have realized. It is the first love affair during my ninteen years.Maybe my expectation is too high,maybe no one can reach that height,who knows.In a word,my love is full of disappiontment.Maybe to be single is still applicable to me.It is not a tragedy,it is just the life style I used to take.At that time I was happy almost everyday,and at least I dare to expect to love a boy.Now,I just want to stay alone.Nobody can disturb me. Thanks to it ,I become mature.Well~~thank you any way. October 03 我们的 和同学出去住了一夜,我们难忘的一夜.爸爸总是很放不开我,很多时候对于我的外出,他总是以沉默的方式表示抗议.去了农家院,午饭吃的不多,但是一直吃到三点,漫长的午饭.王s的到来似乎给我们 注入了不少生气,她似乎天生就是一个领导者,永远以领导者的风范,开始永远没有结尾的讲说.有的时候,我坐在一边,看着她那样的眉飞色舞,我想她上辈子也许是一个哑巴吧...我呢,上辈子一定是像她这辈子这样的滔滔不绝.很多时候,我是有些佩服她的.我们说了很多我们的,我们知道或者不知道的,事情.一直到深夜,不愿睡下.大家都知道,真的是很难得的机会,以后的一年一年,也许见面的机会越来越少.什么时候,才能集到所有我们的人,再来一个我们的一夜?这,是个未知的东西. |
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